OK, so my friend Jennifer asked me why I hadn't blogged in 5 whole days. Well I told her that I have been busy....luv ya Jen :0)
But really life has been coming at me so quickly that I am not sure where I am supposed to be. We are still in the waiting process for Cyd's appointment, not until Oct 27 a little over a week left! I am just ready to hear what they have to say and go from there, I know that we won't be getting all the answers that I want, but maybe some direction.
With all of these doctor's appointments and tests and all the physical therapy I was in, my pocket is starting to feel it. I have been doing so good all year long, until now. It's hard when you know that you need things like clothes for the fall and you have to talk yourself into going and getting them and still feel guilty for buying them. I am thinking that a part time job may have to come into the picture soon, just have to figure out what to do with Cyd if I do that. Not like I can just hire someone to keep her, that would defeat the purpose of the extra income.
Then there is schooling I would like to go back and get my bachelors...but that seems nearly impossible too. Just sometimes feel like I can't get ahead for anything...ever get that feeling?
We had a meeting at work today, and as you know I had mentioned moving. The meeting today was encouraging so I don't guess I will be moving anytime soon. I wasn't wanting to leave my company to move, but just wanted to try to start over...realistically that would not work. My great and wonderful Jennifer said that I should stay here...all my friends and family that love Cyd & I are here. So for now we are staying, at least until my lease is up in March ;0)
Well I must get back to work...it has been a crazy day today!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Waiting/Dating/Life-what to expect
Do you ever wonder what it is that we are waiting for in life? Lately I have been doing that a lot...what am I really supposed to be doing. Am I working at the right job, should I move, is this town just too blah for me now? Things like this have consumed my mind when I am not thinking about Cydney. We have been on a waiting game with all the doctor's appointments for Cyd, now we have to wait till Oct 27...several weeks away! We have made it this far, what's a few more weeks right. So waiting has been killing me, but I know that we will soon be shown what it is that's going on.
Dating....that's another story. I am not sure about dating anymore, at least right now. I know that I have always said that I want to get married again someday and have another child, but starting to doubt that may happen. I was at a friend's house tonight and we were talking about it. One friend is married, another single for some time and they were both like just enjoy things, don't worry about it. It's so much easier said then done!
So my life is full of waiting and wanting to date right now. But, as I sit here in my bed in silence for the first time in awhile I think about things more...thinking that maybe being single isn't so bad and that things with Cyd could always be worse.
Well I am going to stop for the night because my eyes are getting heavy. Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Dating....that's another story. I am not sure about dating anymore, at least right now. I know that I have always said that I want to get married again someday and have another child, but starting to doubt that may happen. I was at a friend's house tonight and we were talking about it. One friend is married, another single for some time and they were both like just enjoy things, don't worry about it. It's so much easier said then done!
So my life is full of waiting and wanting to date right now. But, as I sit here in my bed in silence for the first time in awhile I think about things more...thinking that maybe being single isn't so bad and that things with Cyd could always be worse.
Well I am going to stop for the night because my eyes are getting heavy. Hope everyone has a great weekend.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
First Blog
Ok, so my friend Jennifer has a blog and I figured why not. It does get a lot of emotions out and you can vent a little, right?
We welcome first of all! Not sure how often I will post, but will try to keep things up to date.
My daughter, Cydney, and I live in Newburgh. She is a very active 3 year old who loves to keep me on my toes. She is in preschool and I work for Berry Plastics full-time, she loves her school and likewise I love my job.
Cyd and I have been through a lot in her 3 years, it's been pretty crazy since she has been born. She was not always healthy which is stressful in it's self. She had to have tubes put in well before she was 1 and then tonsils and adenoids came out this past spring. Now we are battling new things, she is very smart. Which I know...your kid is smart that is great, well let me tell ya that having a child that is very smart is not always easy. She doesn't communicate well with children her age, therefore causing problems as you could imagine. She is very aggressive at times too, she likes to kick and hit.
I have seen a therapist about her, and the first thought was that she has Aspergers disorder. That is a form of autism, a high spectrum form. After the therapist was able to meet with Cyd for the first time, she quickly said that if she has it, it's so mild that it shouldn't cause any problems. However, she said that Cyd is very smart and intellectual and this is causing most of her problems. So in a few weeks we go to see another specialist and see what they think. Hoping to soon get the K-ABC test done to see where she really stands right now. Wanting to get this taken care of before she enters into elementary school and gets made fun of.
As for me, well I try to take it day by day. I have fibromyalgia, a torn disc in my low spine, and some vitamin deficiencies. Yet somehow every day I manage to be at work even when I feel like I am not going to make it all day. Well I know how I manage, the grace of God has led me through all of this and He will continue to do so.
Well my work phone is ringing...hope everyone has a great day!
We welcome first of all! Not sure how often I will post, but will try to keep things up to date.
My daughter, Cydney, and I live in Newburgh. She is a very active 3 year old who loves to keep me on my toes. She is in preschool and I work for Berry Plastics full-time, she loves her school and likewise I love my job.
Cyd and I have been through a lot in her 3 years, it's been pretty crazy since she has been born. She was not always healthy which is stressful in it's self. She had to have tubes put in well before she was 1 and then tonsils and adenoids came out this past spring. Now we are battling new things, she is very smart. Which I know...your kid is smart that is great, well let me tell ya that having a child that is very smart is not always easy. She doesn't communicate well with children her age, therefore causing problems as you could imagine. She is very aggressive at times too, she likes to kick and hit.
I have seen a therapist about her, and the first thought was that she has Aspergers disorder. That is a form of autism, a high spectrum form. After the therapist was able to meet with Cyd for the first time, she quickly said that if she has it, it's so mild that it shouldn't cause any problems. However, she said that Cyd is very smart and intellectual and this is causing most of her problems. So in a few weeks we go to see another specialist and see what they think. Hoping to soon get the K-ABC test done to see where she really stands right now. Wanting to get this taken care of before she enters into elementary school and gets made fun of.
As for me, well I try to take it day by day. I have fibromyalgia, a torn disc in my low spine, and some vitamin deficiencies. Yet somehow every day I manage to be at work even when I feel like I am not going to make it all day. Well I know how I manage, the grace of God has led me through all of this and He will continue to do so.
Well my work phone is ringing...hope everyone has a great day!
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